So I’m clever enough to write neat cookie recipes, but I’m not clever enough to name them. True story, I’ve only come up with two names on my menu –the Black & Gold and Uncle Joe’s Eggnog.
So, when it came to naming my cookies – I did what any new small business owner would do – I hired a professional. Wait – no – I went to my network and asked one of my former coworkers who did corporate communications. Felicia was one of the bright spots of my corporate life. We worked together for nearly ten years. She’s an incredibly talented wordsmith and someone I am proud to call a friend. Added bonus – she was pregnant and happy to help and be paid in cookies! So I dropped off cookies for her to sample with notes about the cookies.
She came back with some great name ideas and suggestions. I didn’t know what the heck she would do with chocolate chip. Anyone that worked with me knew about Hazel. Hazel is my grandmother on my mom’s side. Felicia and I would watch a lot of Red Sox playoff games out and about after work and I would have to call Hazel after all of them. I would tell the cutest little stories about her in the office. So, when Felicia suggested that the chocolate chip cookie should be named Hazel’s Chocolate Chip it seemed like something I should have known or come up with myself.
Chocolate chip cookies are the first thing I remember baking. The first person I baked with – Hazel. I called her gram or grandma. But in conversation as an adult to other people she was Hazel or my Hazel. My parents divorced when I was six. Hazel was around us always. When my parents split up, my mom decided to go back to college, a single mom with two kids needs help. So Hazel – she was always helping out. She took us a ton on weekends, same routine always. Home from school – she already had me packed and we had to get moving. She lived in Kittery, ME and right near the Navy Yard. I still hear her rushing me after school to get moving because “We have to beat the Navy Yard”
I remember always feeling proud when cookies came out of the oven. I knew I had done that – I had made something. I would bring cookies home to my mom on Sunday afternoon. She would always be proud and excited and we’d have cookies to snack on till the next baking session with Hazel.
As I got older, I didn’t spend as much time with Hazel. But I always enjoyed baking. I enjoyed putting it all together. The sad part about baking in volume like I do now – I never level off a measuring cup because I weigh ingredients. I always think of her when I level off a measuring cup or spoon.
We didn’t see each other a lot when I moved into Boston. I didn’t have a car – so getting up to New Hampshire became harder and I was kind of building my own life. She had gone to visit some family in Maine for an extended amount of time. I got home one night after going for post work drinks and opened my mailbox one night and there was an envelope that wasn’t a bill on its own in my my mailbox. The handwriting was unmistakably Hazel’s. It was a picture of her on a tractor holding a cocktail. On the back it said “Am Alive, picture taken Aug 30. Will see you soon. Love You, Gram”
After I got married, Hazel was living in elderly housing. I would come up to visit her and I would bring my baking tools and I would make her cookies or muffins. Just something to do and keep company, she was always pretty active so I guess I tried to keep busy for her. She didn’t want to help me, she was content to watch me and ask questions. But she still would look at whatever came out of the oven with the same excitement as she did when I was little.
When she passed away, my heart broke. She was there for us when we needed more help than ever and she was a huge influence in my life. I wish she were alive to see Top Shelf Cookies. I wish I could show her the equipment I’m lucky enough to use. I think she might think some of my cookies were a little fussy. But I’d do anything to have her tell me that.